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Mar. 16th, 2011 01:24 am

There are some days I think I won't make it. And I pull through. My banal existence, mundane life.

Amazing how jealous and how upset you can be at yourself upon learning something bizarre. How awesome... More awesome then you. Always.

rice on your mind?

Jan. 11th, 2011 02:26 am

Life can be so odd at times.

Sometimes it's trying to tell you something, sometimes it's just trying to fuck with you.

Being stuck on the freeway with no cell phone on a dangerous shoulder can definately open up new opinions on life.

An unexpected savior to help you first to get gas by hopping a fence, secondly, allowing use of a cell phone to call AAA, and then thirdly, to kindly tell you not to call police because he has no license is amazing and ironic.

Calling an old friend after finding out some crazy news... then in conversation find out, on another topic, you're dealing with a similar situation.

Receiving a text from a friend who is in a period of ennui, just like you, and asking what the hell you're doing with life.

I do not know where I was going with this....

But here I am. What is life telling me? Maybe that it's not telling me anything. These events are admittingly random, but my gut wants me to believe they're connected in some sort of way.

Sleeping on it will maybe give me answers.

rice on your mind?

Oct. 28th, 2010 04:51 pm

As my job contract closes, I have the power to go where I want... but whats stopping me?

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Jun. 24th, 2010 05:29 pm The World at Large

What does it mean to float.

For years I've been telling people that I prefer to float through life. I prefer to "go wherever life takes me" or "go with the flow." It is now I'm realizing that I haven't been doing this to its full extent. I plan on making better decisions from here on because not making a decision is essentially making a decision.

Best I make the best decision that betters me.

rice on your mind?

Jun. 9th, 2010 05:57 pm Hyman Taylor

Although I knew the great man briefly, almost even becoming roomates with him, I felt that I knew a lot more than I did about the 6 ft 9 in basketball player at USF. With his happy go lucky attitude, nothing ever seemed to piss him off. As a joke he tattooed "Hammer Time" on his arms. Hammer on one, Time on the other. I'll never forget when he came into class totally psyched:

"That way, when you see me dunk it through the hoop, [you'll know wassup.]"

I am sad to hear about what happened. A friend that smiled at everyone, arrogant at times, and loved talking about my friend's upper body.

Rest In Peace my friend.

rice on your mind?

Jan. 28th, 2010 02:01 pm Feeling

I want that old feeling back.

No direction, no purpose,

learning and exploring,

faded and high,

sleeping in, and out late,

free as a bird except in the head.

Time to do something different.

Time for a change.

A total change.

Something that defies everything.

rice on your mind?

Nov. 26th, 2009 07:50 pm Charlie

We put our dog down today. It was a long time coming, but I guess it's still really hard to accept the fact that he is gone and will never come back. It's life I guess, but it's very hard to stomach. Growing up with the dog was the best thing that possibly could happen to me, and I already miss him. It's hard to express your true feelings for someone, even when they're lying in front of you, incapable of moving. Finally you break down and try your hardest to express something you really can't in words or actions. It's just a knowledge, something you take for granted sometimes, but is deep down there.

I also found an old letter from an old friend today. Someone who took the time to write a 10 page front and back letter about how awesome she thought I was. She crushed me at the end and broke my heart, but again I really was to blame, because I never ever let myself express myself to her and how much I liked her.

Here I am, 22, and working the 9-5. I missed out on something both in high school and college, the more and more I thought about it, the more I got bitter.

And here I was, staring down at a part of my family, a pet I loved with all my heart, who was more than I could have ever hoped for. I think Charlie's final gift to me was to make me realize what I really feel about certain persons, and I hope I realized that I need to assertively take action, regardless of what happens.

Charlie Egan
Black Lab
The best friend someone could ever ask for.

rice on your mind?

Aug. 20th, 2009 08:30 pm

i think im about to hit my bottom...

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Aug. 17th, 2009 12:24 am

Once again I second guessed myself about the most unexpected of people.

So here I am.

I was willing.  I was ready.  I was also over it.  But apparently it never works the way my idealistic mind tells me it will.

And then other things come to play to make me realize once again, I had second guessed myself and that I truly know nothing about love, friendship, or even lust or dating.

So here we go.  Without anything left to attach me to my former life, I say goodbye.... once again, to that place I once called home.

Here's to damned memories.

And here's to starting over.... again.

rice on your mind?

Aug. 9th, 2009 03:13 pm RJ mode

Man my roomate got a better paying job than me.  And the girl I'm seeing makes more money than me.  Just comes to show that if you want something you have to fight for it (in the case of Liz) or you have the right contact... in the case of Alex.

Goddammit.  I need to justify my choice in Accounting.  I will not be beaten down by my roomate.  By the end of this year, I will have a pay rate acceptable to my major.

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